my ♥ and everything in it

thanks melvin for the blog title.
don’t wanna have any cryptic references.

so i know i haven’t blogged in like a kazillion billion years, but i’m back. i would like to say that i was wayyy too busy to blog, but that wouldn’t be the truth… at least… not all of it. well, i’d have to say that i was just wayyyy too lazy to turn on my computer. i mean… i missed it and all, but not that much. actually, today, i practically had blog withdrawals. what are these? well, as i was approaching my 10th hour of watching dvds, i was faced with a deep deep longing for something. that something was my blog. however, it was immediately suppressed by my lack of energy to get off the couch, let alone reach for the remote to turn off the tv. no. i’m not a couch potato. today was my first day of complete down time.

anyways, i’ll start off by recapping my break so far.

friday
really fast school day. colin smith visited! so did emmeline! past out all the gifts. i didn’t see ivan that day. damnit. i regretted not having the 3 day attack like i said, judging by the fact that i almost died on my way through the door during first period. i was ultra glad that everyone was ultra happy about what they got for xmas. apparently, like jerry said, I “passed out way more gifts than santa. and [I'm] way better than santa.” thanks jerry. and thanks for everyone who gave me a gift or gave me a smile upon receiving their gift. party with krew after. lots of gifts. lots of taboo. ttt party. walking. then sitting. then CUE for the first time. confusing machines. crepes. eating mine inside then outside. fried rice at the village. sharing. starbucks. meeting people i’ve never seen. this one guy named andrew park and another named jeff something. both mentioning that winter formal was coming up. both times all of us groaned moaned and sighed. don’t mention it. OH GODDD. sitting in denise’s car. drawing on windows. talking. who does ttt like? who doesn’t? what’s up with formal? go home. drop those heavy gifts. i think i lost kevin x’s gift. panic. tired. sleep.

saturday
wake up. 6 hours of shopping. straight. not even for me. constant calls and texts from denise and randy. make sure i stay home at night. come home. tons of bags to unload from the car. do so. randy calls. must distract myself. ullllltra tiiiiiiired. i can only distract myself for so longggg. 9.30. melvin calls. jessel is still waiting for sheknowswhat but does not know the details. melvin plays piano for jessel. jessel plays piano for melvin. jessel stops. melvin stops. jessel falls asleep on couch with blanket. melvin tries to wake jessel up. melvin succeeds, only so that jessel can get up from the couch downstairs and move to her bed upstairs. jessel falls asleep. melvin faces much more difficulty in waking jessel up. jessel wakes up, sadly. she is tired of waiting. jonah calls. he needs to drop off a xmas gift at jessel’s house in 10 mins. jessel sounds tired. jonah asks what’s wrong. jessel says she kept falling asleep on melvin. she is still having difficulty staying awake. 10 mins he says. just 10 mins. stay awake. melvin distracts entertains and tries to keep her away. jonah calls. he’s outside her house. jessel says she hears his mom in the background. jessel knows jonah is at home. jessel says for jonah to leave the gift at the front door and ring the doorbell so that lee can get it for jessel. jonah says it has to be her or else it will be ruined. and i’ll like the gift. after arguing with him for about 10 minutes, i finally muster up the energy to go downstairs with my blanket, open the door, and walk downstairs to my driveway. as i walk down my driveway, i see something in candles. “JE NF”. what the bleep? joseph sun runs up my driveway with a crazypinkglitteryasianbouquetwhichbeeteedoubleyoutakesforevertotakeapartandputinavase. he asks me to wf. i say yes of course. we talk. he says that it’s supposed to say “JESSEL WF?” but the wind was blowing. they (kevin lee, jenny, chris gao, and richard?) were kneeling for 30 mins trying to light them. he succeeded nonetheless. i walk upstairs back to my room. i debrief denise, randy, melvin, tiffany, and mandy. i was about to achieve my goal of sleep when a thought occurred to me. i call joseph. clarify things. then i go to sleep. finally. today was a good day. no one can top it.

sunday – monday
nothing much. bought a christmas outfit. cleaned the house for an extreeeeme filipino family party on xmas day.

tuesday
extreeeeeme xmas party like i said. opened gifts. so tired. watched a movie. went to sleep.

wednesday
regained a friend. i’m excited. get invited by someone not even invited. RANDY. COUGH COUGH. i’m talking to randy on the phone. randy talks to richard online. richard talks to joseph online. it’s all a show, right? randy says “if there are actors on a stage, there should be an audience”. thanks a lot randy. call joseph for the deets. i’m going. for sure. for sure for sure. don’t call. i’m going. for sure. randy gives advice on what to wear. thanks. go to sleep. excited for tomorrow.

thursday
“rehearsal” day. wake up. take a shower. they’re already here. goes ultra fast in the whole getting ready process. go downstairs. go to richard’s car. says hi to richard, cat, and joseph. looks at joseph. does a double take. jessel doesn’t say anything. jessel puts on lotion. joseph complains. smells like girl. joseph complains. he’s never wearing the sweater again. PAUSE. so me and joseph kinda have the same gap sweater. there was this one day when we were supposedly supposed to match, but he didn’t tell me. he just became all PISSY about it saying we should have psychically matched. mine is prettier beeteedoubleyou. mine has grey and hot pink stripes. his is striped ugly brown and poop color green. PLAY. we matched. he zips up his jacket all the way. he looks gay. as usual. JUST KIDDING. anyways. he complains. i tell him to take off the sweater since her prolly has an undershirt under it. he refuses. after brief pause in this pointless debate, cat says hey! you guys have matching shirts. thanks cat. thanks. go to target. no running with the family. macaroni grill! jenny spills. no biggie. at least… minus cat. i love her. i love cat. joseph complains more. about wf. jessel feels like 2nd string to tiffany. joseph denies. joseph asks for clarification from richard. cat backs me up. joseph complains again. joseph won’t go to wf if kevin lee doesn’t go. jessel is right next to him. bitch. texts tiffany. no call. texts tiff again. no call. IT’S ALL GOOD TIFF. DON’T WORRY joseph says that jessel should go with kevin x or steven b. stop. bitch. cue afterwards. i get tempted. i get lured. thanks cat. tons of fun. 2 machines! me cat richard joseph. inteeeeeense. poses. THE MACHINE WITH THE CLIMBING THING. go to joseph’s house. rock band. INTENSEEEE. give kai a call because joseph complained. i have a back up. joseph complains. joseph’s dog. SOOOO CUTTTEEEEE. she’s got hops. all in all, ultra fun day. we should do it again. HOLLIS. >.< cat gets me. go home. sleep.

friday // today
nothing. like i said. watching dvds. finally blogging.

EVERYDAY
CALLS FROM TIFFANY AND MELVIN MAKE ME

“i’m walking on sunshine wooaaahhh ohhhh. and don’t it feel good?!”