my ♥ and everything in it

whilst on the shuttle going to school (a shuttle that fills up faster than a boy’s ego in response to a compliment, imo), i began to think about what i wanted to do with my tomorrows. they’re multiplying faster than bunnies and i just don’t know where to store them anymore. the dreams i get frequented by the most has always involved flying (in my dreams at least) and apparently it suggests that i am either ungrounded and i need to focus, or that i crave independence. pretty sure it’s the latter. idk what it is but my desire to become independent seems to be a double-edged sword. of course i want to become financially stable and self-reliant. it’s just that the transition into that lifestyle kind of scares me. maybe i’m just not mature enough to handle paying for everything just yet and so i’ll keep my fingers crossed until that day comes. the day i become a full-fledged adult! woot.

UPDATE!

school. lame as usual. i’m currently taking summer session 1 and mosdef cannot wait till summer session 2. oh boy. chem is a sleezy beezy and i really really really really really don’t understand what kind of monster would create such an awful torture device. but that’s ok. it’ll all work out in the end, right? must keep my eyes on the prize and my head out of the clouds (for the few hours that i need to study). i really need to up my game – both academically and the other way too.

boys. met a new one yesterday. a rahveh chaaahming fellow. as opposed to others who have a hearty and fierce appetite for attention. otherwise i still find myself victim to the unsolved mystery of the boy species. in the meantime i’m sitting, waiting, wishing – as it should be.

my life is average. i wake up, go to school, eat, sleep, and repeat the same routine over and over again. it’s the people i meet and interact with throughout the day that keep me on my feet and excited for what is to come in the many tomorrows . i’m just taking everything as they come – one moment at a time – and loving it. i am currently sitting in my chem class. i truly hope i can find my passion in the future and have the same enthusiasm for it as prof shaka does for chem.

food for the heart. (other than bananas) heartwarming thoughts come to mind. watching the sunset from my apartment’s living room window. jamming with friends. laughing at every joke because i genuinely find them funny. dancing and singing to songs. drinking a smoothie on a hot day. letting people go in front of you while getting off the shuttle. a friendly smile from a stranger. complimenting someone you don’t even know. spending time with your cousin – even if it means sitting in a lecture hall for the subject you hate the most. meeting new cool people. seeing the myriad of fashion senses splashed all over people that pass by. cooking your first meal with your roomie. being a peppy patty in a room filled with negative nancys, debbie downers, and realistic rachels. feeling like a seven year old and being proud of it.

sit back and wave through the daylight